A Conversation about Self-Improving (10-4-17)

One of the things that I talked about today with a resident was how different times are from one generation of thinking to another and about kindness and changing yourself for the better even though there were people around you that didn't necessarily bring out the best in you all of the time.

This resident is very interesting, and at times I have found her almost intimidating because of the knowledge she holds in her brain. She is one of the people that I would strive to have my life live out like. She is on the younger side of age, and she had traveled all over the world. She has told me experiences that I hope to one day participate in.

As you know from my first post, I told myself that I would dedicate my life to others. I would do anything and everything that I can do to make someone else's life better or at least a little better. I genuinely believe that not only was I sent here to serve others but I was sent here to witness these beautiful life tragedies. Anyways, (back to the point lol) we were just hanging out together when we were having quite a lively discussion. She had complimented me on she found it refreshing that I wanted to better myself at such a young age. She had told me that she has seen others girls come in that have nothing but a negative outlook on life and it makes her down also.

Well, she began to tell me that when she was younger she had perceived everyone as having this perfect, all loving personality but she was suddenly taken back when other people started to stop sharing the little things. People had suddenly shown her that it was not all unicorns and rainbows and that in fact, people wanted to stop being nice. She hadn't known that there was hate in peoples hearts that might have been there just because.

So we ventured on more into the conversation about life, being nice, and self-improving but I gave her a sudden turn in conversation when I said that I had a twin brother that loved me, but he also hates me. She said that this took her back to the story about when she was younger, and she found out that not everyone was a superb, over-whelming, good person. She told me that she didn't know that twins didn't always have a different connection than other people. She thought that twins had this special bond that no one can break and it will be everlasting. I had to burst her bubble and tell her honestly that he and I do have an individual connection, but it's not anything special.

We continued on our journey of self-realization that we need to be a bit nicer when thinking to ourselves about others and how it might not only impact them but ourselves. She had told me that she respected were I had come from and the obstacles that I was faced with and how I surpassed them.

This makes me come to my next point, which is what I think about everything. I will start by saying that I think everyone should be friendly. I get that there can be this bad bone in your body and its hard to shake and you could be mean without even knowing it. I've had this bad bone in my body before, and I slowly taught myself to not only be happy but do not judge people just because it might be a pet peeve of mine.

I must say that I have a butt-load of pet peeves that I cant take and they affect me every day. I think the first step to making yourself a better person would have to be that you have to realize it is you that needs to change and only you can change that. It took me a while to realize this because I thought everyone needed to change and not me. Why me? I mean I didn't do anything to them, but it had just seemed like I was having bad luck at the time. I finally realized that I needed to change how I thought, how I acted, and how I perceived what everyone said and did into something positive.
I knew that if I didn't fix this myself, I am going to make myself miserable my whole life just always thinking about what's so wrong with the world rather than what's in it and what does it mean. I don't believe that anyone should have to go through hardship, but when you do, I think that we need to be open and supportive to one another. These difficulties will shape who we are as people and who we are as a community.

I made an enormous promise to myself that I will always love helping others. Yes, it can get exhausting, and I know that everything can be, so I have taught myself over many years what it means to have patience. Have patience for time, yourself, and others. I live by patience because I don't know anything else that has worked better for me than always having faith there is something new ahead. A new battle, a new struggle, and a new lesson to be learned.

As I take this adventure in writing blogs for everyone and myself, I want to know how I am doing. This is the first time that I am trying to do this and keep it organized. I will admit I am a pretty horrid writer, but I absolutely love feedback and any lovely comments to help improve it.

Comment what you think down below and give me some feedback on how to improve the conversation. I love criticism that can educate me and how I help others. Thank you so much for reading my blog and have a blessed day!

- Frank Floyd Wright

I just loved this Art, so I wanted others to enjoy it as well. 

My First Blog About My Life (10-1-17)

Well... Hello. My name is Bryce. I am currently 18 years old and living my life and learning a lot. I say living because what else can we do besides live our lives and learn from our experiences. I like to think that we all live in harmony, and we go about our days just drifting into the sunset, but sadly that is just a thought. I know that this world doesn't particularly care about me, or you. This could be a sad thought, but something that we can take from this is to focus on ourselves and the ones we care about. 

This is a great example for me because I have already decided to dedicate my life to everyone else besides myself. I don't like the thought of myself being selfish and lazy while there are people out there that need help. Some more information about myself is that I work in a nursing home, a library, and a kitchen. As you can see I like to keep myself busy. I first got my job at the library while I was a junior in high school. A co-worker at the school (I worked for the Tech Department and went to school) had recommended me to the Librarian uptown, and she said she would love to have someone young that could teach people about computers! 

So I took up the Job, and I have loved it ever since. It makes me keep in touch with my techy side while at the same time I get to do my favorite thing in the world, talk to people. So after I went through my junior year that almost broke me, I took up a job at a camp while at the same time I went into my senior year with the nursing home job. The nursing home job I must admit was quite nerve-wracking! This was a job that I not only dreamed about, but I was also terrified because I had way too many self-esteem issues to take criticism. But, I did it, and here I am, and I'm loving it! 

Now going back to the church camp job, which is during the summer and offseason, I think I initially took this job because I not only wanted to connect with people, but I also wanted a different connection with God. My family wasn't exactly religious and pushed me to believe in something, so I was hoping to learn something that I didn't know. And I did, and it was beautiful. But that can be a discussion for another time.

Ok... so enough about my multiple jobs, I will tell you just some things about me. I have a twin brother and an older brother and sister. I have a very old dog, and I love him to the moon and back. My parents are in my life, but at the same time aren't? I have a boyfriend that I have had for four years. I am a fanatic about learning new information, and I also get furious because I can never remember this new amazing information. I feel as though I have a crazy life, but I know that I am only one person, and I need to stay down on my feet. So that brings me to my other point, I am a person of complete sacrifice. I tend to do anything for anyone. Sometimes I don't know when I should or shouldn't, and then that tends to get me into trouble also, but I take it one step at a time.

I'm here today writing a blog because I remember when I was about 12 and I made my first blog. I don't remember any of my information, so I can't find what I said, but I know that I was in a dark place. Even though I was in a dark place, a found this peace in writing my feelings. Even if no one was reading it, I knew that I had written it and someone someday was going to read it and see what I went through.

With this blog, I want to accomplish one thing. Teach others what I have learned. Encourage, educate, and persuade everyone to see another side to an argument while listening to others. Now, this can be hard because GEZZ I have already taken so much of your time with just an introduction, but I promise I have great thoughts, and great ideas to share. So tune in often and enjoy the weird, awkward, and open conversations that can happen here!